Unconditional Love
I have always believed in love...I waited it to happen naturally. I met aman in my graduation 1st year. We both used to notice each other in class and smile...soon we became friends and within five months he said he loves me...I found out that he had a reputation of flirt and my friends warned me to stay away from him...I tried to do that but my heart Wudnt stop thinking about him....one luk of his and I melted...I wanted to just forget about his past flirts nd girlfriends all the rumors and just love him....he was smart humorous handsome caring realistic focused and hardworking guy. I finally confessed to him that I love him irrespective of his reputation.... Soon it was d talk of the town....within a month I was scared to lose my gud reputation I broke up.....and I broke into tears as well...I thought he would come and ask me why did I broke up.....he didn't and that reassured that he wasn't serious....soon I got myself busy wid studies and career and met an ideal good boy for marriage and within two years we got married to Amit ....a focused hardworking guy....but I couldn't love him the way I have always wanted to....coz he is different...he is loyal to me loves me but only until I live according to his standards....career kids home family friends etc....after a year of marriage I met aman again at a friends place ....one luk into his eyes and I was gone flat....there has always bin a strange love in his eyes I felt whenever he Luk at me....again we started seeing each other this time we couldn't stop ourself from making love but we did not have sex.....suddenly within four months I started feeling guilty nd decided to stop everything....I broke up again! After two years he got married....I came to know....I called up nd congratulated and v spoke very formerly though he was very happy to talk to me.....I realized that I should stop bothering him....after next 3 years I got his contact on Facebook.....just Luke at his 6m old daughter and I cud see the same eyes and smile which aman had....I was preg wid my second child then....yet I called aman and we spoke like v had never parted,....we spoke like very close friends sharing the lovely life v both had as parents....our jobs...our kids....everything....a year went by....almost after 8years of my marriage ..2 kids...I still felt I love aman....how much ever friends talk about his reputation yet I couldn't stop thinking about him the moment I hear a love song......he came in my dreams and I used to run after him but before I cud hug him....I used to wake up startled and panting ....I used to wonder y I dream so much about him.....never thought about sex....never thought about kissing him.....we were jus very gud friends yet those dreams wud make me mad....
One day he called up and told me about his dreams.....I was shocked how he had similar dreams about me.....that day we spoke for hours together and realised that inspire of time distance ...coz v live in different countries now ....inspire of being happy wid our own ill family career spouse etc we both miss each other....and he told me ships.....I still love you....like I always did....and to my surprise I couldn't stop myself from saying the same....
Our spouse obviously know that v r jus close friends....v make sure that v don't hurt them coz v don't want trouble in each others married ly....v chat daily talk occasionally....met once 10 years after college ....we were soo emotional that our hug soon turned into smooch followed by love making....but again we didn't have sex....we jus couldn't ...
Both of us believed that our relation doesn't need sex to xpress love.....and that was such a bful moment.....
We hv loved each other since a decade wideout having to have each others body....
I realised how wrong I was wen in college I doubted his intentions,,,,
Even today he is very nervous wen I sit close to him.....even if we r at his home....
This speaks of his unconditional love....
I respect him ....his love for me and I respect myself too....coz I know that even though its an emotional extra marital affair....we both fulfill our duties....love our family....discharge our responsibilities happily wid our spouses.....
Today I don't feel guilty...i don't doubt him.....I jus simply love him.....want him to be happy always....so does he
We talk on phone share our crazes thoughts very frankly....talk bat anything....yet v r totally in blissful love.....
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